The Bureau of Labor Statistics says that the average worker changes employers about every 4 years. Although it’s unclear whether they also change careers/industries, let’s just say that I’m long overdue. For me, this would be Career #2.
Today I decided that my new career is being a photographer. So what type of photography will I be doing? The most gratifying type of photography to me is of people. Men, women, children – doesn’t matter. I believe there’s something beautiful about capturing a moment in time in someone’s life. Taking a snapshot where they could look back years from now and remember. After all, at the end of the day all we have left are our memories – something that nobody could ever take away from us.
So how did I come up with that idea? Continue reading 'I Am A Photographer'»
Technically it was a denim skirt and white sleeveless top with ruffles, but you still wore that and walked down Venice Boardwalk on 4th of July looking like an idiot. What the hell were you thinking on this one?
Why in the world are you doing this?
My primary reason for doing this is to smash social anxiety by going into a heavily populated public area as a man wearing a dress. By doing this, my outcome was to be liberated from social anxiety and the fear of what negative things other people may think of me. By being free from the fear of criticism, I will be more empowered in many areas of my life. There have been too many times in the past where I didn’t do something or was afraid to do it (even though it was in my personal best interest) because of what naysayers would think. And continuing to live that way is no longer acceptable in my world. Continue reading 'Walking Down the Boardwalk Wearing a Dress'»
Today I was having one of those days where I’ve been feeling pretty good about approaching women. When I’m out and about now, I’m actually eager to spot cute girls. I was in Santa Monica doing some work and had to step out onto Third Street Promenade to get something. As I was walking around, I saw a couple of the cuties I really liked. It was then where I got scared again. I was able to open and make a comment to one, so at least that was cool. I passed another potential cute one at the corner, but didn’t turn around and go back because I got scared again.
It’s an interesting situation. In the past few days, I’ve been feeling supremely confident at times and now I feel like a chicken again. But after a little while, I realized that this has been much better than several months ago. Back then, I used to be chicken all the time and not confident any time. So putting it into that perspective helped a lot because now it’s confident some of the time and only chicken some of the time (and much less of one than before).
But as I was walking back to the office, I thought about my situation right now: I feel very confident when I approach the women that I’m only moderately attracted to. I have that feeling of “I can do this.” But when it comes to the women that I’m really attracted to, I get scared wondering if I’m good enough for them and give them all the power. So on one hand, I didn’t want to date the ones that were only moderately attractive because I wanted to go for the perfect girl. On the other hand, I was still scared of the perfect girl. Dilemma right?
But when I asked Brian about it the other day, he said to go do both. Instead of this being mutually exclusive, go for both types of women. He recommended that I should date the women I’m moderately attracted to (my 7’s and 8’s) while simultaneously going for the ones I’m super attracted to (my 9’s and 10’s). It was such a simple and easy answer, I wonder why I didn’t think of it. Makes sense to learn to date and get comfortable with women in general while I build my experience and confidence during the process.
So by the time I got back to the office, I was both enlightened and frustrated. I’m glad I had my epiphany, but wasn’t satisfied that I didn’t really go for those two other girls I saw. After a little while, I knew what I had to do. Continue reading 'Spilling My Guts and Being Vulnerable'»
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